It doesn’t get any easier man. The more the days go by, the more success we rack up, the more the cracks and crevices of life allow for my imposter syndrome to speak its mind. To be frank, I have always been a visionary, someone overly sentimental. I take photos everywhere I go; I cherish the little things and the daily conversations. Recently I am starting to finally feel free of my imposter syndrome. It creeps up on me at the worst time, I like it, it keeps me humble when we soar too high. But sometimes you must leave the negative self-talk behind.

From running jumper cables in the basements of Waterloo to running pole to pole aerial cables in Palm beach. Now my days fly by, the contact list in my phone is flooded with people in the industry. I sit in an office looking down at the city, sometimes I sit on site and stare ahead at the empty hills. I look at large empty constructions, machines whirling away. Projects yet to start, life yet to happen, people I have yet to meet. We have come a long way; wish I could somehow go back in time and have a chat with myself. Tell myself we are going to be alright. Tell my self we are now at the forefront of an industry I would’ve never guessed I would be in. Used to be in a hole in the ground now I don’t even have the next week figured out.

We really are our own worst critics, me first before anyone. We work hard constantly, sacrificing so much, then when the results come around, we question their intention. I can only thank God and those that support me, for the good, and for the bad. The world is cutthroat, it is competitive, I am done being easy and conceding. When you suffer enough to earn that next phase of your life, you must take it and fly. I keep good and bad news to myself; I am even considering wiping any trace of myself off social media and leaving my blog and videos up. I am so in my own head I don’t even recognize myself anymore, I had a chat with an old friend recently talking about distant memories. All those memories I have in my head it feels like I watched them somewhere in a movie long ago. That wasn’t me, I do not know who I was 3 years ago, I was literally current me waiting to happen. How trippy is that. And I think I will read this in 10 years and think wow.

If you’re reading this, I wish you good health and success and abundance. You are going to be loved and appreciated in your life, you deserve it, and I am proud of you. I look at the horizons ahead, the world is so big and beautiful. I do not care if I die tomorrow or in 100 years. I know what I am capable of now and I just get it, I get this world a little better. Its like I turned 26 and a switch flipped in my brain. An imaginary light bulb floats over my head everywhere I go. People around you might seem ahead of you or might seem behind you, we are all running our own race. Be better than who you were yesterday and live your life.

All the Best

H